Igor Krutoi/Krutoy at Barclays Center (ft Dimash, inter alia)

I went to see Igor Krutoi at the Barclays Center on 10/26/19  I've also seen his name transliterated as Krutoy in English.

This was quite a remarkable event.  This arena seats 19k.  It was almost completely full. Most of the audience was Russian.  There are a lot of Russians in Brooklyn.

Igor Krutoy is very famous in Russia.  Also many of the performers were top performers in Russia.  

It was kind of incredible to me that they would bring so many top solo performers to a single concert in NYC.  It would have been prohibitively expensive to have so many top US performers in a single concert.  I think David Foster here only manages to do it, because it's for charity concerts.

YET, there was virtually no publicity for this event.  It must have been word of mouth that got people in. I would think the English language media might have noticed such an event, but I don’t think so.  I guess he does these concerts every few years, but, still, it’s a fascinating and important cultural occasion.

I found out about this concert, because I have been following the even more extraordinary Dimash on YouTube and Instagram.  I searched online for concerts in the USA with Dimash and found this one on a fan website, so I got a ticket immediately and was very fortunate to find an aisle seat — tho I was up in the nosebleed section quite far from the stage.

All of the singers had beautiful voices.  None of them were rough singers.  This has been a point of irritation to me that the US music industry so values rough singing.  When I look at episodes of the The Voice all over the world, they seem to turn around faster for people with rougher voices.

I got to see some clips of the Voice Senior in Germany.  All those people had rough voices, because they were old. The US music industry seems to want young people to sound like old people. Similarly, they want women to sing low and men to sing high.  Stupidity.

In this concert, they had people who sang well.

It was loud in spots, so I had to put in ear plugs part of the time.  They also did the thing that I find utterly incomprehensible of shining bright lights in my eyes. They get my pupils all dilated in the dark theater and then shine bright lights in my eyes.  This is just cruel. 

Why can’t they figure out -- as they did in the Queen concert I went to — to mostly shine the lights on the ceiling; and if shining in the audience use dimmer lights?

Almost the entire thing was in Russian. I did study Russian, but not enough to understand the speeches or the songs — tho I could catch a few words. As a result, a lot of stuff went over my head.  The only person I heard speak or sing in English was Dimash.

Fortunately, I had some Haitians sitting next to me who I could talk to.  One of them showed me that I could find more about the performers on the Internet.

A lot of this audience didn't seem to speak much English, when I tried to speak to them.  People worry so much about Hispanic immigrants.  I feel that it should be even more concerning that there are so many Russians who are potentially here as agents of a foreign power.

I didn’t feel that most of the singers seemed truly authentic.  They seemed a bit plastic to me — except for Dimash and Krutoy himself.  Krutoy really caught my attention when he sang, even tho I didn’t understand him.  I felt he was authentic.  On the other hand, I couldn't understand the lyrics and I was very far from the stage, so I might have felt differently about the other performers if I had understood or been closer.

Most of the performers were wearing fixed smiles at the start of the concert.  The beginning felt a bit Lawrence Welk-ish -- but it got louder into pop and rock as the concert went on.  I think Dimash was the only true pop/classical crossover artist.

Krutoy was quite impressive.  He was there at that piano for 3 hours without a break.  I gather he composed a lot of the music as well. The music was classical, pop, rock, and polka.  There was sometimes a classical orchestra, sometimes a rock band, often backing vocalists, and sometimes dancers. He was there at his white grand piano the whole time.  Just phenomenal.

Dimash was the only non-white soloist.  I couldn’t see if any of the band was Asian.  The backup singers were all white, so far as I could tell. 

It’s a testimony to the extraordinariness of Dimash’s voice that he could break into an event like this.  I was an exchange student in Russia in the seventies.  I met an African student there who was quite critical of the Russians as racist.  Certainly, we see in the US political field that they’ve preferred to support a racist candidate.

I must say that Dimash was even more impressive in person than on the YouTube Videos.  The power of his voice was incredible, earth shattering.

I found out after buying a ticket for this concert, that Dimash has a solo concert in December. I'm going to that as well. I feel that I'm going to enjoy that more.   

One thing that really bothered me was that the audience was rushing out during the finale — and by the time the finale was over the arena, previously full, was almost empty. I found this horribly rude for everyone to leave when all the performers were still on stage singing together. Notably, you could hear Dimash's whistle tones over all the rest of the performers during the finale.

Here are some YouTube Videos of Dimash.at this concert

Here are some of the other performers.

Fortunately, since I had never heard of most of these people, I was able to click on their bios online during the concert and read wikipedia articles about them.  

I would say that Philipp Kirkorov was the closest to an American rock artist.  His stage presence and costuming reminded me a bit of Adam Lambert, tho older, and I would say he seemed a bit less committed to his performances than Lambert.  What I mean by committed is when you can see that performer's sense of self dissolving into the performance.  I feel the best performers do this: they disappear personally and become their performances.  Dimash does it.

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The guy sitting next to me thought that the concert was lip-synched, because the screens near the ceiling of the arena were delayed with respect to the performers' mouths; however, when I looked at the screens on either side of the stage, they were in sync with the performers, so I think the screens near the ceiling were on some kind of delay. I'm thinking that the screens near the stage may have been provided by the Russians and the screens near the ceiling by the arena, so they might not have been compatible.  It doesn't prove there was lip syncing.

Certainly when Dimash put his mic down to an audience member I could hear her singing, which wasn't the case in a video that I saw coming out of another venue.

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Here's Igor Krutoi's post about this concert.  I must say that the performers look much better close up.  I was pretty far away.

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До сих пор, при воспоминании о нью-йоркском концерте, появляются мурашки... И, конечно же, особые впечатления о Финале шоу с песней «Ангел-хранитель» на стихи моего Друга Игоря Николаева @igor_nikolaev_music , за что ему моя огромная благодарность!!! 🤝🤛♥ #игорькрутой #крутой #вжизниразбывает65 #димашкудайберген #филиппкиркоров #николайбасков #анилорак #астудио #димабилан #сергейлазарев #интарсбусулис #иринааллегрова #валерийлеонтьев #барклайсарена #barklayscenter video - @phot.on

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Вчера при полном собрании 16500 зрителей в @barclayscenter в Нью-Йорке прошёл мой первый концерт из международного тура "В жизни раз бывает 65". Огромное спасибо артистам @nikolaibaskov @avarum @keti_one_official @bilanofficial @intarsofficial @lazarevsergey @anilorak @irinaallegrovaofficial @kudaibergenov.dimash @valera_leontiev @fkirkorov, a также всем моим любимым поклонникам за поддержку! Продолжение следует! Video - @phot.on #крутой #игорькрутой #вжизниразбывает65

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And then there was this

NYC had it's first weekend without a shooting in 25 years

Incredible.

I search the NY Times website for mentions of Igor Krutoy and come up short.  What's wrong with them? This is an extraordinary, historical event.  They don't even mention it?

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I was thinking there were so many Russians at this concert because it might have been mentioned in the Russian language local news in Russian communities in Brooklyn -- but I wonder how many Russian fans might have actually traveled to NY just for the concert.  It was possibly an unusual assembly of great performers.  I've known Americans to go to Europe to hear American performers in a different venue in combination with a vacation. That could have happened here.  I don't know

#Dimash #BarclaysCenter #IgorKrutoy



Here’s a video of Dimash performing with Krutoy where you really get to see the faces of more performers, and he really seems to be the only non white person, which is pretty remarkable, IMHO. It speaks to the power of his talent, his openness to participating in other cultures. It’s like Sammy Davis Jr in a way

https://www.instagram.com/tv/B4aTAVUAeSO/?igshid=h145u37b1w0g

Wapo goes tabloid

Normally I write my political commentary under a different pseudonym, but unfortunately I subscribed to them under this pseudonym. Here’s a comment that I wrote to one of their op-ed pieces

The link to the article is at the bottom

This article is outrageous.

Hillary, by saying that someone is being “groomed,” is clearly implying that that someone is working with the Russians. You’re twisting what she said to make it look better. The word “asset” is currently understood by most people, in this context,  to mean someone owned or controlled by the Russians, not someone they happen to use or agree with.

Moreover, you say policy experts support what Hillary said. Then you quote these policy experts who are all saying “could,” clearly not implying that it’s happening now. They aren’t supporting that someone is being “groomed,” at all.

Where is the evidence of the alleged *current* Russian bot activity in support of Tulsi? What is the source of the widespread rumors about Tulsi, attacking her patriotism. Have you investigated where they’re coming from? Are they coming from Hillary, as Tulsi suggests?

Do some serious  investigative reporting! This is shallow and meaningless. You’re looking at rumor and speculation, not facts.

Moreover, the implication that anyone who challenges the official narrative about our foreign policy is somehow a Russian asset is chilling to free speech. Must we be afraid to speak the truth out of fear that Putin may happen to agree? 

https://www.washingtonpost.com/politics/2019/10/22/some-democratic-candidates-are-defending-tulsi-gabbard-against-hillary-clintons-accusations-lot-intelligence-experts-arent/

@QueenWillRock @AdamLambert @TheGarden 8/7/19 -- a review

I went to see QAL (Queen with Adam Lambert) on 8/7/19 at MSG. It’s a measure of how freakily busy I’ve been that I haven’t gotten around to writing my usual concert review.

I normally don’t go to rock concerts. I’m sensitive to loud noise and I find the way most of these bands do guitar strumming is hugely annoying.  I feel that it’s important to protect my ears because there’s a lot of hearing loss in my family — and the research shows that people whose ears hurt in response to loud noises are more likely to get hearing loss from those noises.

But feeling like I can’t participate in rock, because my hearing is sensitive, has been a kind of thorn in my side.  I feel left out.

I went to this concert, because I saw the movie “Bohemian Rhapsody” and started watching Queen  & QAL videos on YouTube.  I watched so many videos that I figured I owed these people money.  I decided I'd just go and wear ear plugs. I've done that in concerts before. It's a drag, but I don't want to be in pain or damage my hearing.

I was crying during most of the concert.  That was because i didn’t have to wear ear plugs. Here was a concert that was reputed to be loud, but didn’t hurt. It was so nice to actually be able to listen to the concert.  That's why I was crying.

If you’ve been following this blog, you’ll note that I recently switched from being a Grobanite to being a Glambert.  Part of my frustration with Josh was that I went to hear beautiful classical/pop crossover music and Josh’s subtle, emotional voice — and I had to wear ear plugs.  I just really didn’t enjoy the last few concerts I went to, even though I enjoyed the albums and the youtube videos.

Some people have said “Couldn’t you be a Glambert and a Grobanite?” Of course, I can be fans of several musicians, and I do listen to others, but the point is who am I obsessed with now.  And that’s Adam, not Josh.

It’s funny.  They’re the same age.  They have similar personal histories and mixed ethnicities.  It’s interesting that I would go from one to the other.

I think the reason that this concert didn’t hurt was that the amplification was mostly in the bass register, and not in the treble register.  That caused a lot of vibration in my body, but didn’t hurt my ears.  Though I think I did have some more tinnitus afterwards.

The only time I plugged my ears was when the fans behind me engaged in high pitched screaming.  That hurt.

One nice thing about it being so loud is that I could sing along with all the songs and I don’t think anyone could hear me.

This is not to say that the audio was wonderful all the time.  I found the music quite staticky in places (is that a word?).  Also, sometimes, I couldn’t hear Adam very well over the music.  Since he was the biggest draw for me, that was a bit disappointing.

One of the fans in front of me was standing the whole time, so I had to stand too, in order to see.  That was OK.  It was probably better for my back.

There was a weird thing that happened in one song, and I should have written down which one, but I didn’t.  There was some kind of constructive interference in those bass notes which sent a pressure wave out, which caused my ears to pop.  That was uncomfortable, tho I’m not sure ear plugs would have helped.  They wouldn’t unpop until I left the arena. I was a physics major, so I know something about wave interference. I know Brian is a physicist.  Maybe he'll see this and understand.  It was bizarre, to say the least.

I was seated off to stage left, in the last section that was sellable, the next section being behind the stage.  This position was curious in that we could see most of the performance, but not the front of the screen.  We could easily see what was going on behind the screen when the screen was down — the flashlight that was being used to keep people from tripping when walking around, for instance — but we missed whatever was being shown on the screen.  That included some images of Freddie, tho we could hear him, and also the asteroid under Brian when he was doing his long solo.  I know there was an asteroid, because I’ve seen it on the YouTube videos.

What we did see during Brian’s solo was him being hoisted up to where the rest of the audience could see, the orbs above him, and the cool light show on the ceiling.  I also got to see him lowered back down and people taking off his seat belt at the bottom.  I was really happy to see that they had him in a seat belt.  They hoisted him up quite high, maybe 20 feet.  It would have been really bad if he had fallen.

I also could see the engineers below us, running the audio & lights and whatnot.  I know that Javi has sometimes hung around by the engineers during concerts. I’ve seen that from his videos and I saw one very cute video of him dancing behind the engineers, as he listened.  I looked for him, but did not see him.  Of course, I wasn’t looking at the audio engineers all the time, so he might well have come out and I might have missed him.

One nice thing was that both Adam and Brian made a point of coming by and waving to our section.  I suppose they did that to the other sections as well, but they may have been conscious of the fact that they had their backs to us most of the time.

I could see a bit of the side of the screen when it was in the up position, but it was also partly blocked by the equipment up there, especially speakers.  It’s interesting that speakers are near the ceiling in a lot of these venues.  That might be why the balcony, where I usually sit, is often so loud.  This time I splurged for the orchestra.  Nevertheless, the last arena concert I saw before this, Josh Groban in Nassau Colosseum, was still too loud, even though I was in the orchestra.

Fortunately, during Bohemian rhapsody, that put the images on the rear screen, so I could see those, not that I haven’t seen them before, but it did seem like such an important part of the concert that I wanted to see it.

It’s funny how, sometimes, when I’ve seen the concert many times on YouTube, which I have, it’s really exciting to be there and see it in person.  Kind of like seeing those little images and that lesser sound whets my appetite for the real thing.  And this was probably the most expensive concert ticket I’ve ever bought, so my appetite was really whetted for sure.

One thing that I appreciated was that when they flashed lights outwards it was mostly towards the ceiling.  Occasionally, I got a bit of light flashed in my eyes, but it was diffuse enough not to hurt.  The last two concerts I went to before this — Josh Groban and Chris Isaak — they flashed really bright lights into our eyes and it was really painful.  Also, at the Beacon, I saw Pentatonix and they flashed really bright lights that hurt my eyes.

Queen is obviously more sensitive to not causing their fans physical pain than most bands.  I'm eternally grateful.

Brian, as a guitarist, is interesting to me.  So often I can’t tolerate the guitar playing in pop and rock music.  I can listen to him.  I’m grateful for that. I’m not sure exactly what he’s doing up there, but I can listen to it and it doesn’t sound like the guitarists that I can’t stand.

I was really intrigued by his solo, which was so full of interesting sounds and the riff duet that he does with Adam.  I love experimental music and weird sounds.  That was part of why I originally liked Josh’s music, but I feel that he’s been getting away from that, so it’s nice to hear someone else doing it.

I usually have to go to the bathroom at least once an hour, but, somehow, I was enjoying this concert enough that I didn't go out, which was fairly remarkable to me.  I know you can go out at MSG, but I didn't.  That's a measure of how good the concert was.

Another thing that interested me was the sound of Adam’s speaking voice in person on the loud speaker.  I felt that his speaking voice in person somehow sounded much more stereotypically gay than he sounds in the youtube videos.

A lingering frustration to me is that the way Adam sounds in concert with Queen — in terms of vocal quality — is quite different from the way he sounds in the recordings that I’ve found.  Particularly, during the ballads like “Who Wants to Live Forever” and “The Show Must Go On.”  I really want a studio recording of him sounding like that.

I got into a fight with a Queen fan on twitter who found it somehow blasphemous that I would want a studio recording of those songs with Adam.  I had to block that guy.

But people’s voices change over time. Adam doesn’t sound the way he sounded in 2009 and he likely won’t sound the same way again in 10 years. I want a high quality recording of how he sounds with Queen now.

It seems like the album Adam is putting out now is a totally different kind of music — doubtless all very fine and enjoyable, but not this particular sound.

A curious thing for me, watching Adam standing next to Brian, is that no matter how high Adam's heels are he doesn't seem to be taller than Brian.  Brian stands up straighter when Adam is higher up, and bends over when playing the guitar, so his height is constantly mysteriously changing --  and his hair sticks up, which makes him seem taller.  According to the information on line, Brian is only an inch and a half taller than Adam, but watching this I have to wonder if that's true.

I ask myself if Adam likes the high heeled shoes, not because they enhance his flamboyant image, but because he wants to be taller than Brian.

#ChrisIsaak at #TheParamount 190728

Live tweeting the concert

reverse chronological order

Perhaps the revival aspect was facetious in view of the subsequent song, which was "Ring of Fire."

Just aside from the noise & flashing lights, this wasn't really my type of music. I liked #WickedGame and #RingOfFire and the Elvis cover, which I stupidly forgot to write down the title of -- and now I can't remember -- but it was one of the more famous ones.

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The opening act was Chelsea Takami.  This is a very beautiful young woman who plays the guitar and sings.  She did a very workmanlike job.  She had good singing style, a lovely outfit, and accompanied herself well.

She didn't really grip me tho.

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I think this was the Elvis song Chris sang

Probably my last @joshgroban concert

I've documented various problems with audio at Josh Groban concerts in this blog over the years.  I think I've finally had enough.

I went to see him in Uniondale, NY. The traffic was trying getting there, so dinner was rushed.

The parking at the Nassau Veterans Memorial Coliseum was steep: $30, on top of the $174 that I already paid for tix.  Thats like what you pay for parking in Manhattan. I didn't realize it would be so expensive before I got there, or I would have investigated alternatives.

Then we went in and found our seats. I had chosen seats on the floor, because they were near the secondary stage and I hoped we would get a better concert experience there.

Unfortunately, I soon noticed that they were flashing stage lights on us there from the row of lights near the ceiling over the stage. That was unpleasant. I really didn't want bright lights flashed in my eyes.  It's painful and i don't think it's good for my eyes.  There should have been some warning when I bought the tickets that there would be bright lights flashing.

Fortunately, there were quite a number of empty seats, so my friend and I went up to sit on the side.  That had a better view anyway.  Though our original seats were near the second stage, our view of the second stage would have been blocked by the audio people, who were seated high up -- even with and in front of the second stage.  We still got some lights shining in our eyes on the side -- but less often and smaller beams.

Basically, I hated Jennifer Nettles' performance. Like Idina Menzel at MSG last year, Nettles was way too loud -- but worse still she was playing a style of country music that I really don't like. Fortunately, she has a nice voice, that I really like, unlike Idina, but the music that accompanies the voice is just as important -- and that was not to my taste at all.

I tweeted Josh that I was unhappy.

One of those self-appointed Grobie police people tweeted back that I should give Jennifer Nettles some love or leave the arena.

I wasn't about to leave the arena after paying $174 plus $30 for parking plus driving for an hour and a half in heavy traffic -- not to mention that I drove my friend there as well, and she would have been disappointed to leave. I told the tweep #myob, but she kept on, so I blocked her.  The second person I've blocked in as many days.  I used to argue, patiently, with these people, but no more. Just block them, but not happily.

So I was in a pretty sour mood, when Josh started.

Unfortunately, he was too loud as well, just as he had been at MSG.  It's not just me with the sensitive ears who thought so.  Others who went to those concerts also told me that they thought it was too loud.

I ended up wearing ear plugs most of the time. I took them off when Josh was on the secondary stage and for the encore.

I did calm down some when he was performing because I do like his music, tho it was disappointing to have to use ear plugs to listen to it.

He was in good voice. I didn't notice any particular problem with his singing, which was a problem in some previous years, as I've documented in previous blogs.

He was wearing a bright orange suit.  That was odd for me.  He's always been very restrained in his dress: modest, dark colors, casual. He seems to have changed quite a bit in personality over the years.  I'm not sure what that's about -- not that I mind him wearing an orange suit.  He can wear whatever he likes, so far as I'm concerned -- but it's just a total departure from his past self.

It reminds me of an article that I read once that said that people tend to wear brighter colors as they age.  The author of that article speculated that it was an ancient instinct developed to distract predators from younger members of a tribe or family.  That author likened it to fish who swim in schools, where the older members instinctively swim on the outside of the school, so they can be picked off by predators, while preserving the younger members.

I did notice a YouTube video of Neil Diamond playing a concert when he was over 70, where he was wearing a sequined shirt, after having been fairly restrained in his dress as a younger man.  I noticed that both Idina Menzel and Jennifer Nettles, who are over 40, performed with lots of sequins....But Josh is only 37 -- hardly an old man.  I hate to think of him that way, but I have to recognize that he's been performing for 20 years -- and that desire to be bright and distracting on stage is overtaking him.  Scary. No sequins for Josh yet, but likely in a few years....

That reminds me as well how modest he used to be as a younger person, never letting anyone see his arms or legs -- yet in the past year or so he tweeted out a photo of himself in a swimsuit on an inflatable swim toy in a pool.  Surprising to someone who has been following him for a while -- not that it's bad.  His extreme self-consciousness in the past was a bit peculiar, but still it's a change.

Interestingly, also, during one of his monologs he again commented on the tendency of fans to fondle his butt during meet & greets.  His ongoing discomfort with being fondled has been a recurring theme during his concert monologues -- and is one of the reasons that he no longer goes glad handing in the audience -- or at least not as much as he used to.  Yet, this time he said he was ok with it.  Curious.

Of course, his music has changed somewhat also.  His collaboration with David Foster was characterized by intellectually interesting and complex arrangements, often with modern classical influences.

Now he's going for a more stereotypical sound.  He seems to have always had some kind of jealousy towards mainstream pop, rock, and country performers.  His engaging people like Idina Menzel (rock) and Jennifer Nettles (country) and that underwhelming Hutchinson guy during the Stages tour typifies that strange feeling that somehow he wants to fit in with the mainstream and get those Grammys (sp?).  I'm not buying it. I liked the more complex music. I'm not impressed with the music that gets Grammys.  The only opening act that I've seen with Josh that I liked was @elew

Josh did play the piano some, but not the drums.

I was pleased to see Ruslan Sirota, whose playing I very much admire.  Unfortunately, I couldn't really appreciate him with the ear plugs on.

I was very pleased to see Tariqh again.  He's been the most reliable of Josh's band, but, recently, there was a TV appearance with a totally substandard substitute guitarist. That served to bring to my attention how much Tariqh, who is or has been the chair of the guitar department of the Los Angeles Conservatory of Music, contributes to Josh's sound.

The one really bright spot for me in this concert was the violin solo for You Raise Me Up (YRMU).  Josh used a local violinist who was an ordinary looking middle aged women -- not someone young and sexy.  In the past, I've been critical for Josh not using older women in his choirs and orchestras.  The women always had to be young, beautiful, and shapely.  She played the solo perfectly nicely, despite not being the cover girl type.

Afterwards, I bought a magnet at the merchandise table.  I figured it would be a nice parting memento of my last Josh concert -- and the end of my 9 years of being a Grobanite.  I proceeded to lose it almost immediately, as I think it fell out of my pocket in the bathroom -- kind of a final slap in the face after an unsatisfactory concert experience -- tho perhaps it was a sign from the universe that I wasn't going to get that bit of closure.

Anyway, I think this was the set list (written hastily during the concert, without much attention to capitalization.  I might have missed something:)

Bigger than us
you are loved
won't look back
granted
pure imagination
oceano
musical interlude


Small stage
Wandering kind
She's always a woman to me


Duet
Where we belong fragment (improv with Ruslan and Jennifer -- humor)
You were always on my mind (cover)


alone again
bring him home


Back to main stage
Instrumental interlude
musica Del corazón
River
alla luce
99 years with Jennifer nettles
yrmu


Encore
Twya
Bridge over troubled waters

I'm puzzled that he's not performing "Symphony" on this tour. That was the first single released on this record, and it was one of my favorites -- also the most similar to his prior work.  I guess, now that he's in a relationship he's happy with, those frustrated songs about rocky relationships aren't on the menu.

Another issue was that I tried to post on FOJG to set up a meet up before the concert. We used to do that all the time.  The thread seemed to have been deleted. What? We're not allowed to meet for dinner now?

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BTW, I elected not to get tix to Josh's Tanglewood concert this summer, because the audio issues were so horrible there last time https://straightarrow372.blogspot.com/2014/08/tanglewood-83014.html

feeling like saying it aloud -- and yet not quite

He's so much younger.  He still has the body of an adolescent.   He doesn't have the full bone & muscle structure of a man.  He looks like a boy.

If you prefer boys, what happens when he gets to be a full adult? Do you lose interest?

You are a man.

Sometimes I fear you're anorexic tho.  You certainly featured  some of those in your video. Believing that as an adult you should have the body of a boy is dysmorphia.

Does @adamlambert look like Jesus?

I've seen several people posting online that since Adam Lambert has grown a beard and longer hair he "looks like Jesus."  That's a peculiar assertion.

Jesus lived 2,000 years ago in the Middle East.  He almost certainly looked like what modern day Arabs look like:  black, culy hair, dark eyes, olive skin, short stature.  Yes, he likely had long hair and a beard -- but that doesn't mean that everyone who has long hair and a beard looks like Jesus.

Adam is 6'1", has blue eyes & straight hair.  Tho he often dies his hair black, it's really a lighter color.  Moreover, even though he is Jewish, his features are generally northern European. He most certainly does *not* look like Jesus.

There's a famous painting often referred to as the "beauty parlor Jesus"  There is this desire to see Jesus as being pretty.

This painting features a Jesus with slightly wavy light brown or ash blond hair -- plainly northern European. A lot of people do not notice this inconsistency.  Actually, if you look at Renaissance Italian paintings of Jesus, they also depict him with much lighter hair than he would really have had.

Some researchers are claiming that there are geometrical differences between the faces of gay and straight men  https://www.bbc.com/news/technology-41188560

Personally, I feel that Adam has what I would call an "angel face," and yes I think a lot of gay men have that.  I wonder if that type of face is more likely to register as divine for some people, maybe most people.  I wonder why that would be.

I started wondering whether the model for the beauty parlor Jesus might have been gay, but apparently the painter said he painted from a vision, not from a model -- so maybe not -- but maybe so, as one doesn't know what the subconscious is inspired by.